This year I turned 40 years old. It should be no big deal, right? I mean, Jennifer Lopez is over 40. Eva Longoria. Drew Barrymore. Amy Adams. Eva Mendes. Cameron Diaz. These are all gorgeous women. I guess the problem is that I don’t compare 40 year old Karmen to 40 year old Cameron Diaz; I compare 40 year old Karmen to 25 year old Karmen. Ok… I am certainly a much better person now. But those years of laughing and crying; the years of smoke-filled bars listening to local bands play; and the years of sun damage (I grew up in the pre-sunscreen age before we knew how important UV protection was)… The person I see in the mirror now is not the person I see in my head.